The journey…The destination

If you go for a simple walk around your neighborhood with your toddler and if you are patience enough to ditch the stroller, you will be amazed at the little curious explorer that is walking beside you...

He will stop to check almost every small object on your way:
All the rocks which apparently are different from one another and apparently are one of the wonders of the worlds; then there are those dead leaves, sticks and simple dirt on the side walk and let’s not forget about ants…

The trip can be VERY long…and you have to remind yourself many times that not go crazy and this whole dawdling is just amazing…and if you allow yourself to be aware of “here and now”, somewhere in the middles of saying WOW for the 100 times to the smallest dirtiest rock on the road, “it” hits you

It hits you that for this little wise man the journey is as exciting as the destination…and the small details of the world are unbelievably irresistible…and precisely that is when a little “ZEN moment” happens…

I had those Eureka sensations most of the times that I had the pleasure of accompanying my little boss in these little trips…

But especially these days it is really easy to get out of the “adult” world and go into a little “Power of now” workshop when your mind is numb as a result of pure exhaustion and your heart has to take a coffee brake from all the mundane anxieties of life after few intense sick days that your little boss had…

I do not recall “Eckhart Tolle” says anything about above mentioned elements in his never ending pages of his famous book (or his practice guide for that matter!!!!)…well I am little judgmental of all the self help books in general!!!! – Another entry all together!

Somewhere in the intersection of life and necessity my body took a leap to Buddhist “stillness”….

Then the “Zen” moment ended – unfortunately – and as always busy mind took over…when this happens for me, I always experience a withdrawal sensation…and in this particular one I started to think when did “this” happen to me or shall I say to all of us?

For a second I wanted to say to all “human race” but I truly think there are many places on this earth that people still live there in a condition that we – the first world nations- consider as primal state….and I do not believe they go through “this”….

I truly believe that it is “us”…the people that are consumed with the self imposed rat race…the fear that comes with it, the sensation of duality and split that surrounds us as the result of all that "need" to survive in this “jungle”… and the abyss of loneliness that eats our soul every silent moment of our day and night….

Most of the times when I drive back from my clinic I think of these thoughts. I see patients that are NOT happy…not because of any and all physical ailments that they have…as a matter of fact for a long time now I came to this conclusion that not being happy, not “live” your life, happens way before the ailment on the physical body…

I mean everybody in some shape or form is in search of “peace”…of some kind of “salvation”…Let’s just face it, mostly that is the main reason why we get in the loop of possession…and when consciously or subconsciously we realize the fatality of all these attempts, the flood of depression hits hard…

Years ago, in my very personal and privet journey, I hit that place…that dark and bottom less abyss…at one of my lowest points a very wise man (who I know him as my dear “alchemist” and my “magician”) told me:
“This moment is that dot in time and space that you are one step away from despair and one step away from enlightenment….”

When I look back to that moment of my life, I can feel the rush of energy in all different directions…. I can feel that “dot”, the potent energy of it, the heaviness and lightens of the air that was going through my lungs and was coming out…as if that “dot” in the universe was the intersection of many different parallel universes that “my character” was playing parts in them…

Believe it or not, I still can recall the exact moment that I made the “jump” from one universe to the other…the moment that I “chose” one road over the others….

But it is so easy to reach to that point in life no matter which parallel universe you are choosing to live in…I see that every time that I take a patient case…I see how much people are sad, dissatisfied, depressed and braking down…people are poisoned with the bitterness…it is sometimes so potent that after those session I have to take sometime off to “spit it out” from my system…

Most of us live with no enthusiasm, no curiously, no love or even hate…there is a deep lack of passion that is ruling the daily lives…and then what happens is that there is absolutely no “desire” left…no desire to live or even to die….

We lost “peace”, we exchanged that with a life that we are leading, and we exchanged that for such a bargaining price that it is heart braking…

We treat our life in the compartments that we made in it and then we are wondering why we are loosing the sense of unity…

Somewhere down the road, most of us forgot that the journey is indeed as magical and wonderful as the destination…and that is what I mean by: “this” happened….

When did we let that wisdom slip away?
After all, once uopn a time all of us were toddlers, looking mesmerized at all the rocks in the road….weren’t we?