Three is passed…

They say a picture worth thousands words…

Well for the glory of this news I will put up two pictures with one massage:

For those of you who can not see them clearly- from top to bottom it says:
Pregnant (OH YA!)
Positive (Hooray)
TWO lines (And that is yes and yes and thousand YES)

Got it?

By the way the first one is the digital pregnancy test. Since I saw the ad on TV, I was so eager to use it one day. They made it sounds so COOL…When I was pregnant the last time, this was not in the market (it feels like the last time was so many years ago...)...and I can testify that this digital one truly holds its reputation in the ads: it is the most advanced and sophisticated piece of equipment that you ever peed on:):):):)

I was speechless from joy when I found out….I had to hold back my tongue and sometimes bite it, so that I won’t scream the news from the rooftop (my better half and I stick to the tradition that does not tell anyone until three months is passed)…

Well my dear blog, three months is passed…

In all honesty before taking the test I just knew it…I knew it exactly the morning that my better half reported that the night before I did NOT wake up when our son called for me. He told me, for the first time ever, it was him that woke up without my voice calling his name.

The better half was highly amused about this whole incident, mostly because the only thing that works like magic and makes him jump out of bed –without even knowing why he is doing it or what time it is or what should be his next move- is my voice calling his name with a certain (hmmmm, well) force :):):)

His exact words to me that morning were “Oh ya, you were pretty unconscious”…and right there and then I knew it!

For a very light sleeper like me (who jumps out of bed with the slightest noise through baby monitor), only the fatigue of the first trimester can put me in the unconscious state (and for those of you who experienced pregnancy, you know which fatigue I am talking about!)…I knew that I am pregnant with no need for any test…but OF COURSE I took all three tests….Hello my name is “Obsessive” and I need to be sure and DOUBLE SURE and ….!!!

Saving all the glorious details of discomfort -which let’s just be on the record here and say: who ever named the stupid “morning sickness”, was someone without a uterus….Morning, shmorning….it can last 24 hours a day and I am not kidding about that….you wake up in the middle of the night to go for very much needed pee…and then you have to wonder whether to sit on the toilet or bend with your head down!

So even with all that and much much more..... I ABSOLTULTY LOVE, ADORE AND CHERISH being pregnant….I loved it with the little boss and I love it this time…

In my perception, pregnancy is such a primal sensation and in this day and age that unfortunately none of the primal sensation survived thanks to our fast paste technological life, I for one cherish any primal feeling that I can experience….it taps directly into that part of human psyche that is collective, universal, eternal and beautifully divine.

So far in my life being pregnant is the single experience in the world that can make me naturally feel unbelievably close to another being and close to divine at the same time…so close to another soul that there is no beginning and no end, there is no boundary that separate us for that nine months…it is pure bliss of heaven….

That sensation of being “ONE” with another soul, “ONE” with universe and ultimately with divine is beyond words…to be the holy alter for creation…it is magical…it transcends time and life…it is living in eternity every single minute for 9 glorious months…

So no need for any more words...they just clutter the feelings...only one more thing:

Thank you God for granting me this bliss one more time…
I am beyond thankful to God and to this soul that chose me and unbelievably humble for the opportunity to accompany another angel in her / his journey from the start….I hope I will be worthy of this gift and the blessing.